Ugh, I cant believe how things changed so fast for me this month! This year was suppose to be the best year for me… So excited to be Mommy😢 But with how fast my baby came into my life my baby was taken away even faster. I know god has plan an everything has for a reason but I cant but think even more now on how much I do want a baby of my own. I always knew i wanted kids but since all this i really do want one. I know it will eventually whenever god lets it, but Lately I just think how I wanna hold my little baby an be a mommy😢 I know it will happen when it does but I just wanna have my little one I wanna be a mommy have my own little mini me running around an laughing 😢😢 Im tryin not to let this get to me an become depressed about what happen but it just really hurts soo much😭😪😥😢 I hope one day I will be lucky to be blessed with my baby 🙏😪 its in gods hands now 😢😪😥
💖My Sweet Lil Jelly Bean💖
You were unexpected lil surprise
We were so excited to meet our Lil jelly bean
So hopes, So many dreams, So many aspirations we had planned
Fell so much in love with my Lil Jelly Bean
Couldn’t wait to feel ur lil kicks
Couldn’t wait to hold you in arms
Give you soo many kisses an hugs
Hear your cute lil laugh
Hear your sweet cries
Or even see your precious smile
You came so soon to be taken away even faster
But everything happens for reason
I Love you sooo much with all my heart my lil jelly bean
Even though i had only for short time you will always be forever in my heart
Mommy an Daddy will always love you our lil jelly bean💖💖💖💖
💖My Sweet Baby💖
For just those few weeks
I had you to myself.
And that seems too short a time
to be changed so profoundly.
In those few weeks,
I came to know you…
and to love you.
You came to trust me with your life.
Oh what a life I had planned for you!
Just those few weeks…
when I lost you,
I lost a lifetime of hopes,
plans, dreams and aspirations.
A slice of my future simply vanished overnight.
Just those few weeks…
It wasn’t enough time to convince others
how special and important you were.
How odd, a truly unique person has recently died
and no one is mourning the passing.
Just a mere few weeks..
And no “normal” person would cry all night
Over a tiny unfinished baby,
or get depressed and withdraw day after endless day.
No one would, so why am I??
You were just those few weeks, my little one.
You darted in and out of my life too quickly.
But it seems that’s all the time you needed
to make my life richer
and to give me a small glimpse of eternity.
My lil snowflake❄
The world may never notice If a Snowdrop doesn’t bloom,
Or even pause to wonder If the petals fall too soon.
But every life that ever forms, Or ever comes to be,
Touches the world in some small way For all eternity.
The little one we long for Was swiftly here and gone.
But the love that was then planted Is a light that still shines on.
And though our arms are empty, Our hearts know what to do.
Every beating of our hearts Says that we love you.
I cant even imagine the thought of losing you, we’ve gone thru so much already an just the thought even taking a break because we r gonna be in two different cities jus boggles my mind. We met two months before u left on deployment we jus started dating each other an everything an u had to leave for 8 months an we conquered that, then u come back somethings things happened that u thought I was gonna leave but I didnt I was upset an in disbelief but I loved u thats all that matter, we conquered that. From u leaving in underways an then this move to washington it was hard but yet again we had each other an we conquered it. Life is gonna throw us so many things, its not gonna be easy yes we might have to be apart again for a lil bit but atleast we’ll be in the same state. Its so hard an saddends me to think that my hunnie, my love, my boo boo wants a break because we cant make it thru being apart as we work in two different cities. Just to think of not being with my babe not having him in my life just hurts soo much cause all I want is him nothing an no one else matters. Ugh, I hate this I just this crap……. 3
Baby no one knows a love like ours <3 Ur the peanut butter to my jelly, the apple to my pie, the straw to my berry, the hero to ur sidekick, the butterflies in my belly,the smoke to my high, the vodka to my chaser, ur my prince an im ur princess <3 Baby me an u are the perfect two <3 <3
I cant decide on either dying my hair red or dying black or just leaving it dark brown??? Ugh one of the many troubles of being a girl lol <3